Most of my life I was medically classified as “morbidly obese”. In plain english, I was seriously fat. My weight truly controlled my life, and not in a positive way. Everything I wanted to do would always be prefaced with “when I lose weight, I will”…and the “wills” were many. Maybe I should have risen above that mindset, but I just couldn’t. I remember at one point thinking if I passed away my children would have few photos to remember me by. Why? Because I would not let photo’s be taken unless I was at a weight I felt comfortable with. The exception is the photo that appears here. This photo was taken on September 30, 2004. I always carry it with me so I never forget where I was, and who I was. The fact is, I was not the same person I am today. You see, for me my weight was my handicap. Defining handicap as my disability. My weight was my barrier. I was not able to rise above that barrier. When my daughter was a little girl, I wanted so to take her to the seashore and sit on the beach. I was too embarrassed to do it. We took many wonderful trips to Disney World, where I felt comfortable with my appearance, but we never went to the seashore. Did my life improve eight years ago when I made the decision to never be obese again? Yes, totally. Do I fear becoming obese again? Yes. One night I had a nightmare that I have never forgotten. I dreamt I died and went to heaven. In front of me was a huge buffet of all of my favorite foods. I was told the good news, and the bad news. The good news was – I could eat everything I wanted and I would never again have to worry about gaining any weight! The bad news was – the weight I was when I died, would forever be my weight. Think about that for a moment. Are you where you want to be? Are you who you want to be? Be all you want to be. You have the power to make that choice.